Hello, Gentle Reader.
I have started many blogs for many purposes, and they always start out with a mildly hilarious snarky first post...and then, as I have no attention span and a shotty memory, are forgotten, with exception of my beyoootiful LJ, which I have since high school, and update with some frequency and with an audience of multitudes.
As I want this journal to be different, the snarky beginnings and mild hilarity in hopes to capture someone else's attention will cease. No need for flash and sass, as I doubt many people will be reading this.
Which is really the point.
I am horrid at finding time to paper journal. My handwriting is also atrocious and it takes me ten minutes to scribble down a sentence, while taking me ten seconds to keyboard it out. [and my handwriting, so to speak, is legible AND classy.]
Here's the problem, journal: I am growing up. Hell, I have grown up. I am a grown up, in the strangest of ways. and whilst my LJ is lovely, I feel like I need to slowly move forward from it. I want to bring it to a close at some point, I'm just not sure how. I want to use you to move in a grown up direction, where I can keep my audience to a minimum of people who I do not mind typing my brains out to on some sort of basis, and a place where I can keep the drama to non-existent. I grow weary of internet drama.
This is part of my never ending pursuit of sucking the poison out of my life, a story I will one day tell here. Suffice it to say for now, it only takes an instant to completely destroy everything and yet takes years upon years to build it back and let it flourish.
Every day brings struggles and blessings, sunshine and curses. I've learned to accept it. I know that I have to work twice as hard as everyone else to get by, and I've grown to accept that. Not that it's not annoying, but regardless.
I've always been a creative person. Writing and music have been outlets that keep me going. Hell, music almost ended my life and ended up saving it, in a random sort of way. I need to write, or face mental insanity. I need music, it's my air. So, in an effort to sort of combine those two, I will try my hardest to post a couple of music downloads with each entry. Either they will be songs that speak to me today, or songs that speak for me for eternity. This first entry will come with one of each, and I won't exactly tell you which one is which. Use your context clues. :)
So...I think that's all I have for now. I have some less than thrilling stuff I need to accomplish tonight, and an early call time in the AM, so I will put this on hold for the time being. Here's some music. Enjoy.
<3,
Burgz.
xx--VCR
http://www.mediafire.com/?engdfd30zdm
Sarah Bettens--Turn Around
http://www.mediafire.com/?tryk1dzwqw2
