Things are starting to pick up and wind down. School's picking up to wind down. Work's winding down--after being sick, now I'm barely getting 20 hours a week combined. [which is annoying, as being sick and getting my car fixed killed my savings.] My life here is starting to pick up and wind down.
I'm spending a lot of time currently trying to figure out life once I get down to Florida. How will I make friends? Where will I apply? What am I going to do about school? I've come to the conclusion that I will get my ass in therapy, no matter how much I hate it. I will have to find a job quickly, which is fine. The sooner I start working, the sooner I'll feel useful. [We've tested you not working. It makes you crazy.] Florida is all about working myself out, and figuring shit out once and for all. This is not to say that I will never have another problem again, but some of these big over-arching themes--it's time to meet them head on and conquer them.
I'm also pondering going back and finishing up my B.S. in Psychology and going to grad school. I keep rolling around school and job options in my head, and honestly, business isn't for me. And well...I have nothing really keeping me from grad school, aside from my own intense laziness. [Which I need to work through.] Psychology has always interested me, and I keep trying to figure out what my skills and what my passions are. People are a skill and a passion, which is hilarious and ironic to me. I spend so much time running away from both of these things...now that I'm ready to embrace it, it involves helping myself to grow and work on other areas.
Greg's leaving in three-ish weeks. Some days this is barely a passing thought, other days, this is all I can think about. After our talk, I feel ok with the path our friendship has taken thus-far, I can't help but worry what happens once he leaves. Once I leave. Will I see him again? Will we keep in touch? I don't want to lose him from my life. At the same time, I'm not particularly sure where I fit in his life--he'll be married sooner rather than later. Things change once that title changes. I'm working towards being ok with never seeing/speaking to him again once he leaves--that way, if we continue a friendship, it will make me happy, and I won't expect it.
Anyway. I should probably get some homework done before class. I'll write more as things develop...and next time I'll write about Coheed and KC. :)
