Post #10: A List.

I am doing that thing that I do when I am stressed...I am ignoring something I need to do because I am too busy freaking out, and going to take twenty minutes, focus on something else, and apparently that something else is a list of things I want to do this summer.

SUMMER LIST: Things I wanna Do.
-Drink too much coffee.
-Spend too much time outside.
-Read.
-Hang out with my friends.
-Weekly zoo visits with Lesley.
-t-shirt quilt.
-Learn to knit.
-Lost marathons with Garrett.
-Go to at least two concerts.
-Make some money.
-Sleep in.
-Hang out at Mokabes.
-Meet new people.
-Find a favorite new album.
-Dye my hair. Twice.
-Buy new shoes.
-Save money.
-Clean my room.
-Go on a float trip.
-Leave the bi-state area.
-Lazy days at home.
-crazy busy days out n about.
-See a movie.
-Eat an ice cream cone.
-Watch the sun set. and rise. [maybe not in the same twenty four hours, but then again...maybe so.]
-Do something spontaneous.
-Do something nice for someone else.
-Write.
-Find a new hobby.
-Enjoy myself, in the now. No worrying about the future.


....Ok. That felt pretty decent. It only took about two minutes. *laughs* well, the rain today has made me think of Joshua Radin and A Fine Frenzy, two of my rainy-music staples. Let's upload 'em.

A Fine Frenzy: Near To You [The key change in this song makes it for me. So simple, yet totally effective.]
http://www.mediafire.com/?nmj2chlynzf

Joshua Radin: The Fear You Won't Fall [I like the lyrics of this one.]
http://www.mediafire.com/?ggtkkjuhhxn

Post #9

I miss Laura. Our friendship is weird, all of a sudden. Well...not all of a sudden. You're much too dependent on her, and she has randomly developed a life outside of you. You talked about it for a bit when you saw her last week. For 45 minutes, before Tanji showed up. [You're not bitter about this.] I think the new plan is to just...wait it out. Quit being desperate and let her come to you. She'll miss you eventually. In the meantime...take this opportunity to enjoy some time alone. To spend time with people you don't see as often. You had fun with Jen, Lydia n' the Maryville crowd that still speaks to you. You'll be hanging out with Garrett and Brad later this week. Once Schubs leaves Starbucks, she'll have more time. Lesley will be home soon. Hang out with Courtney again.

Meanwhile, you have your two projects due in a week, not to mention two finals to start getting ready for. You should get on that also.

I don't know. There's weirdly a ton and yet nothing to update as per my life.

*shrug* For now, I think I'mma throw in a movie, chill out, and do some homework today. I might come back and post a song later, but for now, nothing is really speaking to me.

[Jeez, could I be any more apathetic?]

Post #8 : The first steps in a new direction...

My nightmares have returned. I don't understand. It had been since leaving Katie's. I've had the same nightmare the past few days. Just strange...things. I can't help but wonder what this means, what's going on in that squishy little sponge-brain up there. Why now? I really don't want to bout with insomnia right now...in a month, I won't mind as much, but now is just not a good time. I gotta finish school up.

I don't know. I question my mental stability about twice a week. It's starting to lose meaning.

Florence + The Machine has gotten my musical mind in knots. Her voice is crazy good, and I'm loving this song right now.
"Dog Days Are Over"--Florence + The Machine
http://www.mediafire.com/?ajzjzz4jjjm

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