mer.

I'm a friggin idiot.

Overslept through the "audition." Tried to play it off by going in later...however, I'm not so sure that it's going to work. Which...is what it is.

I'm frustrated. I'm frustrated at myself...there's no one else to point the finger at. I tried to go to bed, and just...was up. Watched the hours tick by. 10, 11, 12, 1, 2,3, 4... Barely was able to acknowledge my alarm, but somehow managed to shut it off.

I'm sitting here crying, because I'm just...angry. Angry at myself. It just feels like no matter what I do, I seem to sabotage myself.

So...it's back to the drawing board, I suppose.

Let's just see what happens.